This is my story as only I know how to tell it.
This is my story as only I know how to tell it ... The pain of being transgender is absolutely and positively indescribable. The loneliness, the sadness, the guilt, the shame, the anger, the fear of discovery, the absolute human anguish, all trapped inside my head … and no one in my life has ever had a clue. It gets compounded by the lack of sympathy, compassion, respect, understanding and comfort from others, the fear of anyone knowing, the fear of being seen as a freak, a sin, a kink, a conquest, an outcast, and the constant fear of and from all types of rejection. What is wrong with me ? Where did this come from ? Why now ? Why me ? Why ? Suddenly, late in my life this alien female identity suddenly explodes into my life. It creates a deep emotional pain that is completely inexplicable that I now live with every day, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, minute by excruciatingly painful second. It was a wall of denial and it has come crashing down. I started that wall when I was very ...